how Xanga works. No seriously though, it took me like 5 minutes to figure out how to get back to my private home page after I had strayed from it. How ridicuous is that?!

Okay. I don't know how long it's been since I last logged onto Xanga. And I don't want to think about it. Have you ever had to take a break from it? I did. Last quarter was a bitch (excuse my language) and I needed to not be on so I could focus on my Syntax. By the way, syntax is both fascinating, complex and EXTREMELY difficult!

Anywhoo, once I was off I kept wanting to log back in.  I would see the logo on my bookmarks bar, longing, begging me to open it and pop on. But I had to stay away. And once you're away for a little while, it gets easier to stay away. The need to write and read Xanga shrinks. The desire to spill your anonymous soul out to a world of strangers, oddly enough, goes away. And the longer you're away, the harder it becomes to log back in.  You start thinking about how much you missed. How much you haven't blogged. How much you would have to catch up on. And it overwhelms you.

But I'm back. It won't be the same intensity, but more often at least.

Okay. So the big updates:
1) I got into my major! Speech and Hearing Science (SPHSC) Majors FTW!!!
2) I'm going to graduate next year! June 2011! Ha- followed by grad school.
3) EDIT *12.7.09* I would rather this be private.
4) Bought 2 Naked Clown calendars. One for my mom and one for my boss. Yeah, they were the pride of my gift giving season.
5) I'm a paid artist now!


That's it.
Alright lovelies.
Enjoy your nights/days.
And go for a walk today.

I am nineteen, female and single. I am single by choice and, to all my dear friends out there, I am more than just my relationship status.

1. Yes, I am single, but I am far from being alone. I have friend and family that care deeply for me and show me through their actions. There are people I can call and who will be there for me and, hopefully they know that it is a two way street.
2. Yes, I would love to be in a relationship. However, knowing myself and where I am at in my self-development, I am also well aware that for me to enter a relationship at this time would be for selfish reasons. I would not be able to offer my all and would expect much in return. Both individuals would be putting themselves into a joint product and it is unfair to expect more than I am able to give. It could potentially cause harm to the other person involved in this relationship and knowing that the potential is high means I am unwilling to attempt a relationship now.
3. Yes, I read about relationships, probably too much. That part of life fascinates me- the psychology, biology and sociology behind it is incredible. We truly are spectacular creatures and I love to know how the world works.I may only be book smart as far as romantic relationships are concerned, but I am very experienced as far as friendships and familial relationships and know that there is still far too much immaturity in my life to handle a romantic relationship on top of that.
   
4. And yes, I am aware that actually having a relationship would teach me more than any book on the subject. But if I am unwilling to attempt a relationship with anyone because I feel I'm not emotionally, spiritually and mentally ready for one is something you should respect.

I will know when I'm ready and when that happens, and a man worthy of attempting a relationship with comes around, I will enter into one. And until then, I'm enjoying being single- going where I choose, when I choose and with whomever I choose, without worrying about how it would affect another human being. I am learning more about myself than I ever thought I could or would and until I feel stable and mature enough, there will be no significant other in my life. I can barely manage my friendships. Please stop reminding me of the lack of experience I have or undermine my knowledge. Just wait with me and when it happens, it will happen. And, hopefully, you'll be happy for me and understand my stance better.

So my darling sister, Marco, just left me a 2 minute and 12 second voicemail schooling me on the way to leave proper passive-aggressive revenge voicemails. Apparently, my revenge-forgettingmesickrightbeforeschoolstarts-voicemail was not properly executed. So, I read between the lines of what she said in her voicemail and added in her direct teachings and devised a guide for all who want to leave a proper passive-aggressive revenge voicemail.


1) Remember your exact reason for revenge. DO NOT get angry over reason, otherwise it is NOT a passive-aggressive voicemail

2) Mention reason at the start of voicemail. Say that reason made you unhappy (for instance: "You got me sick 2 days before school starts, and that's really frustrating. I mean I have to work and everything.")

3) Casually slide into other topics (good transition: "but that's okay. Anyways...")

4) Talk about topics that will be of no interest to anyone. Make sure that you do not bring any of the topics to an actual conclusion. If you have a friend with ADHD, then listen to them on a day without medication- you will understand how to perform this task with careful observation. (Good topics: Weather predictions, lost DVDs, what you did in the morning...)

6) Now, for THE MOST IMPORTANT PART: Be sure to use EVERY second of the 2 minutes and 20 seconds alloted for voicemails. NO PAUSES. Also avoid: ah and umm.

7) For added effect, repeat. Approximately 23 times.

Also, make sure this goes to their voicemail. Wasting their time on the phone is not the right way to go about this. Hopefully you won't have to use this too often, but if you do, please make sure your revenge voicemails are as excellent as possible.